no matter how hard you try..lil' bit of mask peels off day by day!

after a certain point,it ceases to make sense.people you were very fond of,no longer seem to hold your importance.things around are quick to change or perhaps it's just me who grows tired of being stuck with the same group of people with not the slightest possibility to grow.perhaps I am a parasite.I feed on people's goodness and when I have sucked out all that I could,I tend to outgrow them.yes,its either this or that.I'd rather not tell myself that the world has run out of genuine people or even my world for that matter for that's too negative a thought.I don't want to tell myself that people masquerade as someone I'd eventually grow to like but which they eventually would tire of being.The psychopaths in them take pleasure in shattering the image they had created of themselves.I'd rather that the fault lies within me because me,I can always change but the world around me will never.this way I can always hope to be a little better the next morning thinking I might find people being nice to me because I am a little less of a parasite today than I was yesterday.

It's either this, or that all the people I've met till now purport to be something else and I am an easy prey. I believe.and no matter how hard they try,little bit of mask peels off day by day and sticking with something they are not,is too much of an effort.And I am no longer an interesting prey either.they have found a new one now and once again the entire cycle repeats.it all starts from step one.the sweet talks,the late night coffee,the late night hanging out or staying up on phone,poking each other throughout the day,greeting with a hug when you'd met just an hour ago and then... the mask..it starts to peel off.

when you see it all happening to someone new,a whole set of memories whizz past.you're caught in a time trap and often times you know not how to escape.
one world we live in,full of psychopaths who feed on people's grief.you can either be victimized once,learn and turn yourself into one of them or be the victim forever.